Almost everything I can say on this thread will most likely be misunderstood.

I will say this. If you've really done what you've said, you need to check your bearings before you do anything else. Talk to another counselor or one of those mental health professionals you mentioned. Find a priest or minister, preferably one you don't know but with a good reputation, and talk to them.

Don't trust your judgement alone.

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Pardon, but it doesn't seem like you are considering anyone else's judgment. There was a lot of "I" in your post above.

And of course you know that writing a book is the wrong reason to do what you've described.

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Usually what you get out of something is what you bring in to something. Most people do not have the means to move beyond their own shadows.

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I'm not concerned about your book, although your attitude about it does make me uneasy.

Look, this is an internet forum, and it's possible that I am misinterpreting what you are saying.

But's its also life, and it's possible you are misinterpreting the "evidence" and your "calling."

And frankly, that is if what you have brought here is truth. I'll give you the benefit of a doubt on that one.

All I am saying is that you should check your experience with others who have a different perspective, people you can talk with face to face.

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*shrugs*

You're putting words in my posts which were not there.

It's not your writing that makes me uneasy, it's your attitude about chronicling your experiences.

I've done my bit, I encouraged you to look for balance in your work. Thrice in fact.

And no, I won't ignore you.

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There have been many terrible things done in the name of an absolute, "transcendent" morality. Many by Christians. Many by Christians to Christians. And many by Christians to Christians in the last century alone.

A label doesn't define morality. In the words of Mark Twain, "Action speaks louder than words but not nearly as often."

I'd rather know what someone has done than what they call themselves.

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